Monday, March 16, 2009 : neglected one.
13:41
in school right now.
feeling damn sick.
no appetite.
somehow or rather.
I feel that I'm kinda the 1 who always get forgotten easily.
even when I'm sitting like next to them,
they don't notice me.
kinda sad.
if you really think about it.
or is it that I am damn too quiet already.
but it's weird that people have this mindset.
that's I'm loud & able to make friends instanteously.
weird huh.
haiz.
guess I'm really that complicated deep down.
hmm..
I do want to change like people think I am suppose to be.
but,
somehow, sometimes,
I just feel damn left out.
think I just don't like the feeling of being left out.
even if I'm not part of something.
I feel that I do want to know as well.
suddenly, it seems so conflicting isn't it?
I wanna die.
it's so damn cold here.
& my body is aching.
feverish.
damn..
tomorrow got camp.
& I wanna follow my lil' brother to interview tomorrow.
how to split myself into 2?
am I really that important?
I guess not.
time for self reflecting I guess.
