what about today.

chatted with Agnes & Diva last nite.
hahaha...
too much fun.
hadn't had that in awhile.

talked about alot of stuff.
hidden & stuff that is in the light.

I didn't realize that I'm such an arse in gossiping.
hehe.
well watever it is.

like wat I've told Agnes.

I have to move on.
staying at the same spot,
does no good to any of us.
I have to say this self psycho-ing works wonders sometimes.

wat's done,
cannot be undone.
even though a part of it can't bear to.
but it's a choice that he made.
we can't do anything about it.

I too can't stop him,
if he wants to avoid.
if avoiding makes it easier for him,
then so be it.

I won't deny that I feel sad to see it end this way.
but I have to stop myself thinking of it.
thinking of why is he so persistent & giving up.

I won't deny that,
there's always a part of me wanting to see him.
& not wanting to.

I have no idea how long it will pass,
till I've truly get over it.
but I know I have given up hope in relationship.
maybe it's just not for me at the moment.
maybe I have come in terms that I might have a possibility that,
I might not be in a relationship. period.

like I've said,
I have to move on.
it's just sad that it has to end this way.
after being persuaded & all.

& what I've learnt.
Age does matters.
and it is a problem in everything.

it doesn't help much when I do tink of the times about you.
god damnit.