Thursday, June 19, 2008 : Disappointment
04:39
what do you call someone,
whom you have just broke up with the person.
& still managed to bring yourself to help HIM?
I donno what kind of person I am.
but the kind of disappointment is there,
when I am like there trying to help.
all HE does was not serious about the work.
giving up easily.
thus, making me think.
is it really worth it to be there & look at you giving up.
you know how hard it is.
to have just broke up with you,
& to see you straight after that?
I am afterall a human.
it's not like I am not sad, or not bothered by it.
well at least I've tired to hold on to it.
but I kinda makes me feel that I am being silly.
aye, I donno.
guess it's just a pure disappointment that I am feeling.
I feel guilty for giving HIM attitude.
'cos I seriously have no idea how to treat him.
it's like used to so 'on' with each other.
then, back to being just friends.
it's kinda hard.
& it might take some time to get used to it.
although I am sad over it.
but somehow, I feel that there will be no turning back.
how do I sum this all up.
I have truly BURNT my FINGERS in the whole process.
& guess that my fate with younger people are so, fickled.
