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up & away BOLD italics underline Friday, June 20, 2008 : Aching
it's aching right now.
I donno whether I am even allow to say that I miss him. at least I've tried to keep myself busy for the past 2-3days. in hope that I don't have the time to stop & think about him. nightime is always the worse time for me. it's a period of rest, & not doing a single thing. you can say I am desperate, to find someone to talk to. or even to complain about. or maybe just to cry. it would be extremely rubbish to say that, I am not sad at all. even when u 1st hint me that YOU wanna break it up. unfortunately, for you. I am great at hiding my emotion online. just a few 'hahas' here & there. the amount of tissue that I've accumlated from tearing/crying/squeezing out the mucus from my nose. has thus, resulting my sinus attack to come back. which I can say, confidently, I will have a high chance of being sick. but then again. I've said it. that I'm missing him. I am so shameless. feeling shameless indeed. all I feel like doing is to cry myself to sleep. but seems, like I can't. even the self psycho-ing is doing no use for me. self psycho-ing like: will get used to it. I am beginning to think that sentence is utterly rubbish. it's not helping in anyway. I wanna have the courage to confront my fears. to confront, facing him. cuihui has broke down into pieces since that WF episode. she doesn't know whether she can be strong anymore. --- read someone's blog. just discovered that our supposed anniversary. he was out doing his project. which I was fine with it. school's work is more important anyway. but the shocking part was. he went out for a movie with his friends. after working on his project. when all the while I was trying to reach him via sms. & half of the time, I thought he was working. whatever happened to honesty? I donno, maybe I'm just feeling disappointed. I guess. cos, it just make it seems like he doesn't care that much. is it that I've put in too much. or giving too much affection. I donno which is which.
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