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14:05 I've been left alone, out. I donno.

been 'super' busy with work.

most of the time I'm slacking at home, doing nothing.

well except for sleeping.

no messages from any of my frens.

na-dah. nothing.

I thought I will be included in the activities that they had plan.

but from reading from their blog.

it seems like it doesn't

I think it must be me or something.

I think they secretly hate me.

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it makes me think I am back in secondary school.

where my friends don't wanna talk to me, cos they think I am acting cute.

well, when they finally tell me.

is when they asked me to get out of their lives.

well the whole thing ended when they told me how they feel.

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I just hope that I can know what is going on.

cos I don't think I deserved to be treated this way.

I have the right to know what you guys hate me for?

it's not like I will not listen to what you say.

it's you never give me the chance to hear what you feel.

actually, I have no idea how to ask you guys outright about what is going on.

'cos I have a fear,

a fear that you would not come straight with me.

and I have no idea how to ask.

I have a few opening,

"hey guys have not been calling me out. what happened?"
"hey guys, I kinda feel that you guys are leaving me out of the activities. what happened??"
"hey guys, can I asked is it that you hate me now, that you are not calling me out?"

ok.

I know that last sentence was totally uncalled for.

but, when you are desperate, you take drastic measures.

actually, what I want to do is, to fix the whole situation.

I want to know the problem.

I want to solve the problem.

but, the main problem now is,

I donno how to solve the problem to get the solution.

haha...it's messed up right? I know.

I am messed up.