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Sunday, December 30, 2007 : hungry
I am hungry.
will some kind soul send some food up to my place? I want Geylang's You Tiao. I want 85's Bar Chor Mee. I want 85's Chicken Wings. I want 85's Oyster. I want Geylang's Dumpling with lotsa ginger & vinegar. I am so so hungry right now. I want to eat. will anyone bring me some food? pretty please?! Saturday, December 29, 2007 : feaky
said something about finding me from friendster. he had the cheek to goggle my msn add. a bit of a nerve! he freaks me out! act like wat crap! found me on friendster. dare to ask me what's my friendster add hell I'll give ya. scary man! : I AM A TOTAL RETARD
I thought he was not going back home. what the hell.. the bloody second time happened!! I was about to go home, there he was, coming back from wherever he came from. & guess what? I become a retard by hiding in YUTING'S room!! I feel like crap now! damn it. argh...I'm disgusted by my cowardice!! damn it man! feel like slapping myself in the face! why can't I do what I always wanted to do? just be fucking person & move it! argh...I feel super disgusted man! I DISGUST MYSELF!! EEEKS... 2nd coincidence + 3rd coincidence. I happened to get something that he wished for his birthday. both the oreo cheesecake & ikea gummies. seriously, I have nothing to do with that. 'cos I remember that he loved those alot. argh.. no use explaining. no 1 will listen. particularly not him. I feel like a fool, retard & ass!! --------------------------------- my mum saw his present, she asked. "who is the big shot's birthday?" "I want that gummies. it looks nice" Yuting saw his present, she said. "Hui, I also want." "are those for me?" "can I have all the cheesecake?" I feel so silly. thankfully, I never took any pic of it. cos the jar, is literally filled to the brim with the gummies! who am I kidding? damn! I am not trying to impress anyone. okay, truthfully, I just want to be appreciated, particularly, especially, by HIM! I AM A TOTAL LOSER! CASE CLOSE! EDITED!
I've changed my mind! I want you to say "Thank You"! all in the name of courtesy & being friends! I hate myself for everything! damn...just it go already! : happy birthday to you.
HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY,
MR. WF! may all your dreams & wishes come true!! have a wonderful celebration!! =) Friday, December 28, 2007 : 1 hour 15 mins
it's gonna be his birthday. sad to say, he is not at home. seems that he's been taking alot of long leave. wonder how he is doing right now? haha...damn it right? am I even allowed to say I missed him? I hate the way I am feeling right now! well on the other hand, he won't need to say thanks or whatever! : 1 more day
sad to say. I'm still kinda worried the present I am gonna give. don't really know whether he will accept it or not. a "thanks" msg is kinda the last thing I wanna hear. okay, I am so contradicting & confused! a thank you is much better than nothing. 'cos it's basic courtesy! =) had high fever the previous night! all I could think about is how will I get about doing cheesecake for him. fever is still on & off. but getting slightly better. so 1 more day left. Monday, December 24, 2007 : dying
[[ c u i 翠慧 h u i ]] (｡◕‿◕｡) -i hope that i can bring happiness to you...feel so alone- says (01:49): i wanna die.. aly yo~! says (01:49): why [[ c u i 翠慧 h u i ]] (｡◕‿◕｡) -i hope that i can bring happiness to you...feel so alone- says (01:49): cos i think i haf live enough [[ c u i 翠慧 h u i ]] (｡◕‿◕｡) -i hope that i can bring happiness to you...feel so alone- says (01:49): haha aly yo~! says (01:50): u haven get married aly yo~! says (01:50): kids aly yo~! says (01:50): travel [[ c u i 翠慧 h u i ]] (｡◕‿◕｡) -i hope that i can bring happiness to you...feel so alone- says (01:51): i can skip marrying.. [[ c u i 翠慧 h u i ]] (｡◕‿◕｡) -i hope that i can bring happiness to you...feel so alone- says (01:51): hmm.. [[ c u i 翠慧 h u i ]] (｡◕‿◕｡) -i hope that i can bring happiness to you...feel so alone- says (01:51): travel.. [[ c u i 翠慧 h u i ]] (｡◕‿◕｡) -i hope that i can bring happiness to you...feel so alone- says (01:51): hmm..ok.. [[ c u i 翠慧 h u i ]] (｡◕‿◕｡) -i hope that i can bring happiness to you...feel so alone- says (01:51): face it.. aly yo~! says (01:51): haha [[ c u i 翠慧 h u i ]] (｡◕‿◕｡) -i hope that i can bring happiness to you...feel so alone- says (01:52): i don think i will save/earn enough to go to europe.. [[ c u i 翠慧 h u i ]] (｡◕‿◕｡) -i hope that i can bring happiness to you...feel so alone- says (01:52): or even america yesh. I think I have live long enough! die when I'm still young & "beautiful" haha... : ikea..again..my life sucks
went Tampines Ikea again! this time with Alicia & her fren, Robin. bought hanger again. cos my mum found out that Ikea have those that she wanted & wood is better than plastic. while Robin is just an extra. okay, he did help to take things. =) thx! went over to Giant for a shopping spree! snack spree more like it. bought lotsa snacks! chips chips chips & more chips! haha... slack with them for awhile then home, is where I will be headed. suddenly, I don't feel like me anymore.
I seem to lose interest in enjoying myself. all the things that I wanna enjoy, doesn't interests me anymore. all of my frens are either busy with their work or boyfriends. I feel so alone. sian. it's not I do not want to join them or what. it's just I won't want my frens to tire themselves much like, have to entertain me & not letting their guy feel left out. suddenly, I'm feel so sick of life. so sick of everything. it must be the boredom that's eating me away, for the past 2days. laze at home, eat, sleep, eat again, sleep again. a total pig. I think I've lost the vigor in life! HELP? Sunday, December 23, 2007 : piggy
staying at home for 2 straight days.
really makes me turn into a pig. room into a pig sty! been bored out of my mind! I never leave the room till like 4 in the afternoon! can guess how lazy I feel! haha.. suddenly, a question pop into my mind. which prompt me into writing this post. why are the opposite so special? so special that, some girls would willingly do anything for them. why do they have such strong hold on us, that no matter what we do, we can't break free? is it that girls are more emotional than guys. that's why we can't let go of certain things? I'm just pondering I guess!! 6 more days till his birthday. Thursday, December 20, 2007 : National Treasure: Book of Secrets
FINALLY.
I MANAGED TO CATCH NATIONAL TREASURE: BOOK OF SECRETS! with KK. kinda reminds me of the Da Vinci Code! I simply love it. it's contains all the action & puzzles! haha.. but it kinda sucks when after the whole movie, I have that urged to message to tell him/ask him. just simply to talk to him. thankfully, I do have a decent amount of self control! hehe.. went home after the movie. feel so "sian-ation". went club in the previous morning. something happened out of the ordinary. tio police raid! my 1st time ever happen while clubbing! it's like everyone thought finish liao. when it was just around 1+! kinda weird right? after the whole thing. it just went back to normal. think they just wanna do a head count of something! : chocolate gifts
I have not done anything yet! damn.. 2nd day of Eelingo. still trying to cope whatever I can! so much like working for office hours! so much like school..! haf to reach at 0730hrs! I NEED ALOT OF MORNING CALLS! start to miss his morning calls again! oh..well! nothing much I can do about! so back to Eelingo. tired yesh. fun yesh. morning work no. received a gift from this customer of mine. a Le Rouges chocolate. he's a 90+yr old uncle! Uncle Eugene is his name. shrivel & hunchback. he looks like he's been through World War 2! he can speak french, japanese, spanish(a lil bit) so about those chocolates. they look kinda expensive! OMFG. how should/shall I return the gift of equal value that he's given me. damn. what am I suppose to do? Wednesday, December 19, 2007 : weakness
what makes you if you don't have weakness?
definitely a non human! went out with Alicia after work. finally got my black & surprisingly grey jeans! Alicia got a pair of greys. after that head down to Tampines Ikea! & I have a confession to make!! I have been conned by Spotlight!! the jar there are WAYYY CHEAP! the same design which I got from Spotlight cost me 10bucks. Ikea: 2bucks..! a total of 8bucks difference! I'VE BEEN CHEATED! well at least the desgin of the jar I'm looking for is cheaper then Muji! thankfully, I never buy it from Muji on Sunday! phew! the jar...are so...bloody cheap!! guess I really feel at ease in Ikea! they should make me the ambassador of Ikea! =)) it's like my PERFECT home decor!! plus they have fabulous meatballs!! the gravy! the cranberry sauce! damn..yummy!! so I kinda blew 58 on 2pairs of jeans, 20 on Ikea. I kinda brought 100 out... so I kinda left 25bucks!! damn I am so broke! so fast!! help help!! after Ikea, we slack at Mac till it was time for me to catch the last bus home. ---------------------------------- talking to Alicia about each of our own weakness! sure every1 has their own weakness. no 1 is perfect in this world. it's just how we make use of our weakness & turn them into strength. & this is what it matters most! anyway, this topic suddenly made me think of something. I had a chat with my fren once. about death. she was telling me that she's afraid. I simply told her I wasn't. I was just afraid that no one would attend my funeral! kinda silly right? well I remembered I watched this show, The Mummy. the evil guy, his favourite scentence is, "Dead is just only the beginning." it's set curiousity about how dead would be like after we die. including me. I wanna know what the traditional chinese belief was true. or we just go heaven, or we stay on earth do nothing. ---------------------------------- hope is what we live for everyday. without hope, no humans can survive. it kinda works the same as belief. if you are telling someone to give up hope. it is really extreme? is there a better way to move on, without losing hope? Tuesday, December 18, 2007 : 2nd mth of sadness & 5566
haha.. it's the 2nd month since that day! still trying my very best to do whatever I can!! I still haven't given up what I have believe in. I'm still sad at times. BUT, I am still doing alright! :) now moving on before I continue talking about him again! so, went Bukit Panjang with Lao Gong today! her precious 5566 are having an autograph session over there. at last! Tony Sun finally cut his hair! he look dreadful with his long hair! haha..I think I have problems with guys keeping their hair long! guess I am "neat-clean-cut-guy" kinda girl! :)) it was packed! worst than clubs! aunties were pushing around, lotsa phones, digi cams & even vid cams! some had their tripod stand attached to it!! -.- but it was packed! solid! screaming girls & boys! the boys there, well they screech than scream! shocking right? took Lao Gong half hour to get her poster sign. signature by 许孟哲 was smeared! but luckily her idol, Tony Sun's wasn't! haha.. went back to Orchard & had Pepper Lunch dinner with Yuting. then home we headed. kinda a boring day! don't cha think? I kinda filled the 1st half of the day by watching Taxi! been getting quite a few sources for movies lately! wasting my electricity bills by switching on my lappy for overnight! guess I am super bored! wahaha... Sunday, December 16, 2007 : magorium's wonder emporium
went out with Wilson today. haha.. it's been quite awhile since I last saw him! LOL.. hmm... went to watch Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium! haha... IT'S MAGICAL! what's with the show that I have been watching.. it's always something to do with magic!! haha...maybe I need lotsa magic in my life!! who knows!? it's nice!perfect!! BUT..I hated the ending. it makes me waiting, hoping it will continue!! I was kinda shocked that it was finished! damn.. but overall, it's really nice!! went Muji at Bugis after the movie! saw the jar I wanted to get for him (initally)!! but...I wondering I should get it..like now! cos the 1 I had initally got, the cover was kinda loose. Wilson was saying, since you got it, den let it be. BUT, THIS GIFT IS IMPORTANT TO ME!! anywae, can you tell me what should I do? feel like don't wanna bother about it. cos I kinda feel that he wouldn't care much less about it. so why am I making a fuss out of it! *slapping myself in the face* I MISS HIM...SUDDENLY! I MISS YOU, WENG FEI!oops!(speaking of the forbidden name!haha...) just wanna hold his hands & look into his eyes & smile! so anywae, I am still debating on whether I should get the more secure jar for him. any suggestions? had dinner at the pasta restaurant in Marina Square. Wakaru or something liddat! the 1 where they display their pasta at the display window!! haha.. the plate was big, but the food. not that satisfying!! I want more! but unfortunately, I guess my stomach really turn smaller! I was full after the meal! & so we walked all the way from Marina Square to Clarke Quay, then to Outram Park mrt! then here I am, home! =)) sweet dreams... will you accept my gift for you? the funniest video of 12 Days of Christmas! Saturday, December 15, 2007 : boredom 3
I
am so bored! I feel like I better off dead than alive. feel so restless, so sian, drained. whatever! suddenly, the feelings of missing him came back. must be the boredom I am feeling/experiencing. wondering how he is doing right now. I miss you. how about you? wondering whether you will accept my gift for you. wondering I can bring you the same happiness, that you have given me on my birthday. : boredom 2
I spotted a flying cockroach!! it was flying towards me! I was screaming my head off!! been spotting alot of their dead bodies at my void deck! super scary! especially the 1s that can fly!! it's been a long time since I've scream at cockroaches!! my heart is still pumping way too hard!! --------------------------------- went sentosa with Val, Mad, KK & CK. weather didn't do any justice for us!! it was bright & sunny, then it was cloudy. we made a sand statue out of KK. which includes a pair of sand boobs! haha.. we miss ALICIA lots! so we drew alicia's name on the sand! haha.. hope you love it! =))  Alicia's nickname  upclose of the nickname  Alicia's alternate nickname  KK's sand-y boobies!
Friday, December 14, 2007 : alvin and the chipmunks
Alvin and The Chipmuncks!! it is super nice!! they are ooohh...so cute!! KK was commenting that he is gonna feed his hamster to become like Theodore!! they are like so cute lor! the way they dance, the way they sing, the way they talk, the way they look! aww...I kinda wish I own 1 chipmunk!! well with the exception of ALVIN! he sure will mess up my home! my room even!not that my room is the cleaniest or what! hehes I want the soundtrack!! I want all of the songs.. that they sing! who can give it to me? =))  the poster of the movie.  Red: Alvin
Blue: Simon Green: Theodore Wednesday, December 12, 2007 : I feel so worthless
This Page For Keywords just, haha, think Reward $509 Lets101 - online free dating : boredom
 Lets101 - Free Dating Site haha...I didn't know I am such a hot-cake!! haha..  Lets101 - Free Online Dating Network alright!! the number 3 is inside!! wooot... A soul from Venus with a sexual appeal 6.9 of 10. Guys hold your breath... Lets101 - online free dating I only like the picture for this! haha... & they have to hold their breath to know me... do I stink?hehe...  Lets101 - Free Online Dating my compatibility with him... man...it's less than 50%! feel so miserable!! so like...what the hell!!! Taurus! 101%!! woot...mad! she's mine, baby! hehe  Lets101 Quizzes - online fun quiz his compatibility with other horoscope! but it kinda suck when his compatibility with me is so much more! damn...and to think it turn out like this!! I declare this is rubbish!! wahahah... : discharged
haha.. now have to be careful when I wear my contacts! I don wanna have ulcer in my eye! so scary.. like gonna haf a hole somewhere in the eye!! haha went to mad's blog!! & I found it interesting to do the horoscope thingy!!  Lets101 Quizzes - blog quizzes I didn't noe I am that "strong"!! haha.. a fighter, strong-willed, dominant in relationships & etc. so weird to see this thing!! haha : daemon
god damn! just took the "what's my daemon" test! I'mma stupid monkey!! a male Gibbon Daemon (Aeschylus) to be exact! the test reveals that I am a: Modest, Spontaneous, Assertive, Solitary, Proud. what the hell!! a monkey daemon!! argh.. anywae..you guys can help me check wat kinda person I am ok? thx!! =)) have fun playing!! : trouble..big trouble
HELP..
I AM IN DIRE STRAITS! CAN ANYONE HELP ME? the after effects of taiwan, just gives me the undesirable result! although I have no regrets in doing that. but the consequences... argh!! I can't make any outgoing calls or even send messages! damn!! CAN SOMEONE KIND ENOUGH TO HELP ME? I WILL BE DEEPLY APPRECIATE UR KINDNESS! AND WILL BE IN DEBT OF YOURS. memories. are always bitter sweet. his birthday is coming. thinking of wat I can do. thinking of giving him the same wonderful gift that he had given me, on my birthday. but I am holding myself back. 'cos of what happened while I was at his/the house. I have no idea whether he finds me irksome, or detestable! maybe on the lighter note, maybe he didn't notice me. or I was slow in saying hello. whatever it is, I don't think he would want to see me, not even face-to-face. then, how can I give him his gift personally. maybe I'll just pass it to his place. perhaps..... Thursday, December 06, 2007 : surprise 2
ALICIA MANAGED TO FIND OUT THE PRESENT AFTER ALL! haha.. Mad & I were kinda worried that she never look into her bag or what!! just so happens that she need her adapter...so present she found!! =)) she wanna hug me & Madeleine!! hehe.. a blue rip curl wallet.. ever since she was pickpocketed, she was kinda down for 2 days. no wallet, no ez-link, no admin card, no atm. since she just had her birthday. the clique decided that a wallet for her would be the most thing that she needs! =)) so happy for her!! --------------------------------- did shopping again!!! I am super broke!! left with the miserable 14bucks. with my phone bills to settle. no money liao.. *sobbing quietly at a corner of the room* I bought a pair of shoes, pepper plus dress, the birthday gift for him. I have yet to get my cotton on shorts!! damn... why liddat?  the card with the wallet  the wallet itself
: surprise
we got her a belated birthday gift! along with Shihui, Eric, Eugene, Valerie, KK & Chee Khiang!! haha.. how she likes the gift!! hehe... : 公主小妹 vs. The Eye
been catching ever since I got home from my doc's appointment! the doctor ban me from wearing contact lens.. till she gives me the okay!! now doing 2 kinds of eye drops & a eye gel!! so troublesome!! argh... 公主小妹.. it's super nice...super funny..! I still prefer 王东城!! BUT... the chemistry between 吴尊 & 张韶涵.. is flawless!! anyway... great news!! I JUST DOWNLOADED HAIRSPRAY.. AFTER SO LONG!! yes!! I have succeeded!! ALRIGHTS... =)) Tuesday, December 04, 2007 : unhappy!!!
I am an unhappy girl right now!!! 'cos.... I haven't got the chance to spend on the things I want!! so far I managed to spend on... a pair of pumps 2 pairs of earrings valerie's birthday present wanted to give her present on the spot, but she refused. saying she wanna get it on her birthday!! silly girl. oh ya. I went to watch Enchanted today! super funny. still had the happy virus even after the show!! haha.. loved every part of it.. yes. I truly believe there is such things as ever after! as long you are willing to believe. =)) --------------------------------- back to talking about me being an unhappy girl! although I have buy those things.. but I am still not satisfied!! I still wanna buy, another pair of shoes shorts from Button On dress from Pepper Plus haha.. it's official!! I am a certified nutcase!! =)) --------------------------------- I am gonna watch Golden Compass & National Treasure: Book of Secrets!!! can't wait... National Treasure makes me think of him! haha... but still, I WANT TO WATCH IT!! for the memories' sake! =)) Monday, December 03, 2007 : stupid eye
my eye!!
my eye!! went to see the doctor this morning.. doctor says I've got eye ulcer!! you gotta be kidding me right? eye ulcer!! @_@ wat the fuck is that? EYE ULCER!! -.- : motivated & tiredness
he said that I given him motivation to blog more! haha.. not bad eh.. I GIVE PPLE MOTIVATION LEH!! first time in my life.. can feel how happy or not? =)) last day of sitex!! 1 word! TIRING!! 1st time in my life, lose my voice over work! tio 'fuck' by customers for 4 times just by today. 1 crazy uncle who claims he's a senior engineer, kept asking me how to plug the cable in the hubstation!! and how to differentiate between 'holes' for cable wire & phone wire! SENIOR ENGINEER, MY ARSE!! when thay uncle came to ask me those stupid qns. suddenly, feel like calling/messaging him to complain!! missed those days!! damn.. so tired.. feel aslp with my laptop on my body last nite.. think i am gonna do the same..anything... SOON!! Saturday, December 01, 2007 : disappointment
I think I am... *but I feel so, blessed. thankful. to have to talk to you! was looking for a shoulder to cry on! & it found me Alicia!* but this blog is so like gonna be my diary!! haha.. sooner or later, I am gonna bore everyone, from reading! 'cos it's too much!! HAHA... anywae... as I was saying. I feel so disappointed. 'cos I've been saying that I wanna see him. then I did get the chance. the result, it was a disaster...complete disaster! what I had imagined was, a smile. or, a nod. or, a hello. unfortunately, it wasn't! just disaster! I am trying to take the 1st step. why aren't you giving me the chance? haha... suddenly, I feel so overrated! abit of demanding & out of control! maybe it's just an infatuation? that's what Alicia came out with. maybe I need a new relationship? that's what Alicia, KK & Valerie came out with. I am confused. that's what Shamin came up with. I should just let it go. that's what everyone including, me came out with. I just want to keep him inside my heart & let him go. that what I came out with. I AM SO CONFUSED, yet, I am sure of what I wanna do. see!! I am CONFUSED. =)) : aching sensation
she got a pda! HTC Touch!! everyone knows that HTC suck... but I have no idea why would she wanna buy that pda! but nvm, it's her choice. she apparently ran into some problems on her pda. & she required my help. so being her friend, I agree. manage to solve the whole bloody problem by doing a hard reset. apparently, htc has a soft reset. *a total retard!* suddenly, he came home. damn. I was like prepared to say hello or what. but when he came into her room. he didn't look at me when I look up. & I was like waiting for him to notice me, so I can say hello. well, afterall, I am a guest at his/her house. so since I know him, I should technically say hello. but I was totally IGNORED! --------------------------------- my heart just crumbled into a thousand, million pieces. but I can't just change my mood as when I like right? I still have to help Yuting configure her htc. at that moment, I donno why. I just feel like shit! I was thinking that is it that he still thinks that I can't face him, that's why he refuse to look at me? I am trying to look forward by taking the first step, like saying hello. or even a nod to indicate a hello. but no. at that time, I too start to think that, am I that irksome to him. or do I disgust him? that much that he doesn't even wanna look at me. I just donno what to say. all I can say is that I suck. I didn't know that my presence disgust you. whatever I do, you find me irksome. --------------------------------- or is it that you do not want me to cry anymore? that you just totally walk off... or is that you didn't notice that I was about to say hello. --------------------------------- your hair is long. are u thinking of cutting it soon?
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