what about today.

our last heart-to-heart chat lasted for 4:08:49hrs...

I wanted to end our last chat on a happier tone, but I tink it doesn't ended up in the way that I wanted!

I will miss him lots, cos of all the wonderful times together.

I will be heartbroken, cos of what he said to me.

I definitely will be angry at myself, of the attitude that I given him.

lastly, I will be confused, cos he can changed his feelings overnight.

I wan us to be together that's why I don mind giving all that I have.

& now, I could only cry, in hopes of that I would forget about him & everything.

ya ya...I noe time will heal everything..

but it's a slow process...I don wan it to be that slow..

the slower it is, the harder my heart can take...

u might ask, how come i don wanna treat him as frens?

well I don wan to give myself more hope that his feelings will return & that we can be together again.

I noe deep down it's no use..especially if it's a guy.

once the feelings are gone, they are never gonna come back.

I'm tearing like mad now! tink I stop here.

I hope that with time goes by, I will be okay & not thinking about him anymore.

P.S: it's been a month since he celebrated my birthday. my surprise birthday cake from him. I had it planned to help him celebrate, but I guess it will not happened.

P.P.S: xxx! I WILL MISS YOU...till the time that I'll be okay! THANKS FOR EVERYTHING YOU HAVE DONE!