what about today.

I miss going to his place after school

I miss going to his place after work

I miss going to his place after tutoring

I miss messaging him during school

I miss messaging him during work

I miss messaging him during tutoring

I thought that I will be okay

but it seems that I am truly not...yet

just had my last tutoring lesson, was slightly drizzling on my way home.

I did an extra 30mins for Chloe's tomorrow's paper.

somehow,

I miss him messaging me asking/urging me when I'm gonna finish tutoring

I miss him picking me up from tutoring. (he only did twice or thrice)

all of the sudden I have the impluse to call & tell him how much I misses him...alot

I want him to hug me & tell me that everything will be alright

or will be back to the way it was.

feeling a huge excruciating ache/pain in me.

I want the pain to go away,

but I know it can't be help 'cos it me, I have to fix it...somehow

I can't help but to miss him.

lotsa contradiction going isn't it?